Monday [Radiation Therapy – Day 11]:
7:00am-8:00am Drive from Home to RTher
[With 1 stop @ Starbucks because it’s Veteran’s Day (which I don’t get off from work), so traffic is holiday-light, so I got nearly to RTher by 7:40am and stopped to get myself a treat (yeah, I know, quit counting, k?) on the way for no other reason than I had time.]
8:15am-8:30am Appointment with ROnc
9:10am-9:25am Drive from PTher to Work
5:30pm-6:35pm Drive from Work to Home
Tuesday [Radiation Therapy – Day 12]:
[Walked back into the female changing room after RTher and found one of the private rooms open, with my new friend “Dana” doing her post-RTher ablutions, so I slipped into the room with her (so we could share the mirror) and proceeded to chat and do our stuff together – sharing with each other what we’re each using and having a lovely time actually. As wonderful as my entire support system is (And They Are!), there is something incredibly freeing and relaxing about being around someone (even if, to other people, they would seem a stranger) who is going through what you are – there is an instant intimacy and community like no other. So we slathered boob goop on ourselves and chatted, I shared this blog and my contact details with her. She said she’d read my blog and gimme a call to give me her contact info. I hope she does – I had to get to work and she had to get upstairs for something so we couldn’t talk for but a few minutes – but I really like her. So “Dana,” if you’re reading this like you said you were gonna, gimme a call. :)]
9:10am-9:25am Drive from RTher to Work
[With 1 stop to put gas in the car]
[No good deed goes unpunished. I had 3 sweaters I had bought and after getting them home decided they didn’t fit well enough to keep. Every year my company finds a family who doesn’t have all of what they need and helps them out. One of the things this year’s family asked for was food. I figured I’d take the sweaters back and use that money to buy food for this year’s family. I can do that in an hour, right? Wrong.
So after daring to take a few minutes this morning to talk to someone who, more than almost anybody else in My world right now, knows Exactly what I’m going through, I’m all of a sudden (with yesterday’s PTher) an hour down on work time this week. And now after doing my good deed (despite giving myself an out not to do Anything for Anyone this year – oh, and I’m sticking by that for my own family – won’t they be surprised?), I’m an hour and 15 minutes down on work time.
So much for a foot massage Friday at lunch, eh?]
5:30pm-6:30pm Drive from Work to Support Group
7:00-8:35pm Support Group
8:35pm-9:15pm Drive from Support Group to Home
Wednesday [Radiation Therapy – Day 13]:
[Wait, aren’t we missing an entry in there? Yes, yes we are. As it turns out the entire computer system for the hospital, and by extension, the Cancer Center went down at 4:30am this morning. It still wasn’t up when I walked in for RTher this morning, and of course since the medical records are all electronic, they couldn’t even call me to save me driving an hour an 15 minutes for nothing.
And if the system comes up, it takes at least 45 minutes for the machine to warm up, Then they have to go through their daily calibration (or whatever they call it), so who knows if I’m getting my treatment today or not. So I was originally going to have my last treatment on December 12th, but since my facility is closed on Thanksgiving and the day after, we’re now taking two days on the end of my treatment. And if I don’t get treatment today, then we’ll add this day onto the end of my treatment. And then if I (yes, I, not my doctors, it’s not there body – I’m going to get two of their opinions and then make the decision myself) decide not to have the Boost at the end, then that adds another 7 treatments or so on the end, so I’ll be lucky to be done with this by Christmas.
And I have no idea when they’ll be able to treat me today, which means as much energy as I’ve put into making this as easy on my employer as possible, I now have to tell them I need to wait by the phone and bail on them immediately if it rings. They’ll understand, but it pisses me off. I simply Do Not have time in my day for it to get rearranged like this. Please see Rule #3.
Happy Hump Day!]
[Got a call at 9:15am from one of my guys. Apparently the machine is back up and he wants to know if I want to come in for my treatment today. I ask him when. He says he has 1:15pm, 1:30pm . . . I take the 1:15 spot, since that actually does Not need an announcement at work – I’ll just take my usual lunch hour and use it to go get treatment instead of…
…what I was going to do was make a deposit to my HSA account to get the tax breaks of maxing out my HSA deposit for this year and be able to pay some of the medical providers who’ve been sending me bills. But now that will have to wait for another day. Doesn’t sound like a big deal, I know. My life feels so full right now, tho, that getting rearranged is more of a big deal than it might be for, well, you.
And I’m doing things on my lunch hour sort of because I am so tired these days, in that A) there’s no way I’m doing it on the way home, I’m completely done by the end of my work day, so this way Some of it gets done, and B) I’m afraid that if I stopped and rested at lunch I may not get going again for the afternoon, so this way I have something to keep me going while I plow through my day in one fell swoop, as they say.]
[Doing today what I wanted to do yesterday at lunch – depositing some money into a couple of accounts so bills can be paid – and they can leave me the hell alone already! :)]
5:30pm-6:30pm Drive from Work to Home
Friday [Radiation Therapy – Day 15]:
Additional Tasks Accomplished This Week:
– took a hat I had knitted for myself and gave it to one of the supervisors at my office to send to her sister, who has finished chemo and radiation, but whose home got slammed in Sandy – at least last week she was wearing a hat (‘cuz her hair hasn’t grown back yet from chemo), under multiple blankets and eating chips for dinner ‘cuz she had no power or heat – ‘cuz I do have hair, power and heat at home, and the means to cook a hot dinner.
– managed Not to run out of gas in the car (it was a pretty close call one day)
– emailed with my cousin on whether I will or will not be coming to her Thanksgiving shindig next week. It makes me sad that I had to decline, but with Hubby maybe having to work over TG weekend (yeah, crappy, but oh well), and me literally not knowing how I’m going to feel day-to-day right now, since she needs to know for sure by Tuesday noon to plan her party, I had to decline as I honestly can’t guarantee knowing by then if either Hubby or me will be able to/up to doing Thursday. So Hubby and me are on our own for Turkey Day, but it’s not the first time (prolly won’t be the last) and we’re okay with that. We’ll either find somewhere else to go, do our own little thing just the two of us, or just hang out together and have peanut butter & jelly sandwiches.
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