This is the first time I’m deciding to go to RTher all by myself – you know, like a big girl.
– my RTher asked where my Mom was, why wasn’t she here? Really? I finally decide to treat this thing like it’s no big deal in the hope that acting as if will actually make it feel like no big deal (I’m just coming in for some quick RTher and then I’m off to work – no biggie, right?) and he asks me where my Mom is. . .facepalm. Well, he knows I’m an only child (from talking to my Mom previously), and he also has only one child, so he’s asking from his/her POV.
This actually got me thinking – I went home and promptly asked Mom, Dad and Hubby if they were as involved with my treatment as they want to be, for themselves. I figured I prolly knew the answer but I asked anyway, separately, each of them. I’m not sure that I would have changed anything if they had said “no” but thankfully they all answered “Yes.” So, tomorrow I’ll let Iggy know that I asked, they said yes, and gently (he really is a good guy) remind him that it’s about me first, before it’s about them.
– a little warmth this morning when they did the down-from-above angle
– late afternoon fatigue – about the time I usually take my walk around the block – 4:00pmish. I’ll make it through, but tired enough that my eyes are starting to hurt and there is actual yawning. I’ve been told to expect serious fatigue, at some point before the end of treatment, which could last up to several months after treatment ends (since things are still ‘cooking’ in there – nice, I know). I’m hoping this isn’t that, but just reaching the end of my usual weekly energy allotment. Of course my RSurg thinks my body is, in her word, hyper-reactive (and no, for those who are thinking it, she didn’t mean that in the good way – get your mind out of the gutter just for a minute, k?), so who knows?
– intermittent breast pain – some near the hematoma I still have lateral to the nipple and some from the nipple incision, which is now showing almost a pretty cherry red – if I do lose my skin integrity during this, I’m afraid that may be the first spot to go. Thought about using ice, again, but didn’t – I was too damn tired to deal with it. Doesn’t make sense, right, and yet it’s true.
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